Do you ever feel like you are trying to fill shoes that just don't fit? I feel that way quite often right now as I am struggling with what I want to be when I 'grow up'. Could I stay at home and continue to be a domestic engineer? Yes. Can I go back to school and finish my degree? Yes. Could I keep doing this? Yes. But I'm really struggling with the fact that I'm not really helping anyone. I'd like to help design homes for Habitat for Humanity, design business logos for newbie business owners for free.I want to feed the hungry, clothe the homeless, stop Global Warming, reduce my footprint. I want to exercise more, and eat less. I need to drink more water. I want to help keep our water clean. I want to leave a mark on this world that will remain long after I am gone. I want my grandchildren to tell stories of my life to their grandchildren, and speak of me with pride and fondness. I want to fill MY shoes. But which pair?? How do you fill them all, when there are so many to choose from? To be a role model to my children of all that they can accomplish in life, of all the good that they are capable of and yet be home when they get home from school... these are huge dialogues that have been going on in my head. I thought perhaps if I vocalized them, organized them just enough to get them out, that perhaps something might jump off the page at me.
I'll let you know when it hits me. Any thoughts? I'd love to hear. You guys always have some of the best life advise to share. One thing I do know. There won't be anymore kids. My minor surgery a few weeks ago took care of that. :)
PS.. the image is of my daughter trying to strut her stuff in my only pair of heels.