Digital Journal Page 12
Monday, March 2, 2009 at 9:39AM 
It has been awhile since I created a journal page. This one is in regard to having another child. After every child I have had thus far, I have said, quite emphatically, 'this is my last!'. Again, my maternal clock is shifting into over drive. As my daughters get older and closer to going to school, I am struggling with what do with myself. Should I go back to school? Volunteer? Start a business? As I really have no clue and almost daily, it seems, my ideas and dreams change, there is one thing I know, I am a mother. A good mother. It is something I can't quit and will never regret doing. The one job I have always been on time for and the one I will never regret devoting my life to. So, perhaps, I'll have another. Someday. No, I am not pregnant. :)
Damn it. Spring better get here soon, cause I really think I'm starting to loose my mind.. another kid??? What am I thinking???
We are getting more snow today.. more!
Reader Comments (13)
Abbie, I so know that feeling ~ as you can clearly see (five sons) that I've truly loved being a mother too, I believe it was what I was made to do. That, and to be an artist ~ love them both! Now it's time for me to enjoy the benefits of being a grandparent ~ I can't wait! xxoo, Dawn
Abbie,
It is clear, you are destined for more children. Give your husband the gift of life again. Surround yourself with pieces of yourself.
The Bridgewater Zohan
Big decisions... All the best as you work your way through this one. I'm hoping that you'll wait until spring to decide just in case it's a winter thing.
This is a wonderful page...it perfectly tells this part of your story.
Let's keep our fingers crossed that this March is nothing like last.
Ahh!! LOL!! OMG.. for anyone wondering about the 'Bridgewater Zohan's very crazy comment.... sounds like a man right?
It was my HUSBAND!! Can you tell he wants one more??
~Abbie
HI Abbie....oh ohhhh, is the Baby Virus in the net???? I guess when you have 3 kids already, another doesn't really matter. I'm sure you make the right decision.....sometimes stuff just happens and in the end you think that was exactly what I needed. So let's see.....smiles, Anke;)
PS: Yes spring better gets here soon, we have some sun today and it's comfi warm in our Wintergarten, so send you some warmth and sun over!!!!!
LOL! And what if husband gets another little girl with a penchant for princesses and destruction? And imagine 2 very little girls and a baby and a son at Disney. You are either very brave or very crazy. Perhaps very both. Thank you for making me smile big today!
HI Abbie--about 15 years ago, I thought I wanted another baby--I already had 4 children, and my youngest was then 8. I ended up being glad I didn't have another child, after all, because a few short years later, one of my daughters became a mother herself, and I was so involved helping to raise my baby grandson, it was almost as though I HAD had another child! He was a difficult baby--suffered from colic, never slept, and later was hospitalized with dehydration due to a stomach bug, so we had our hands full. He's blossomed into a wonderful young man, and many other grandchildren have followed, so I certainly was able to satisfy my "baby fever" longings that way! God knows what you need, and you will find your niche, in addition to being the wonderful mother that you are! Smiles, Jann
If my husband had felt as yours does, I would have had more children. It takes two in agreement to make the joy of a new life full and complete. Whatever you decide, you are a very fortunate woman.
You are too funny! I think we are all going to be counting the months now... ;) Love the journal page!
xoxo,
Mary
Abbie...this journal page is so beautiful. the pic of the mother and baby is so precious. Hope it is warming up where you are.
Hello, We've not met and I don't know you at all, but I am offering my 2 "crazy" cents. Why not adopt? I have 4, yes, 4-count 'em, great kids from China. It is life altering for sure...giving the gift of love and family to a child who already exists on this earth and who, if not for you, would never know a mom, dad, or love of a family. It's just a thought.
LOL! You are funny. I know you meant for this to be more of an introspective, serious post, but I had to laugh. After my first child, I thought that was it. When I discovered I was pregnant again, I wondered if I could love another child as much. You know the answer to that one, don't you?!? LOL! Anyway, I have four now (can't have anymore, the last one broke my uterus). Even though some days are chaotic, or even unpleasant, most days are good. I can't imagine what I would do without any of them, really! So, I don't think you're crazy to at least think about another child. I have to say that I think four is better than three, though - something about even numbers. Have you thought of having 2 more??? Ha, ha!
Enjoy your 2 little blessings~
Amber
Lovely!
Blessings, peace, and love to you,
Tonya